My Board exam(10th grade Annual exam) will commence on March 3rd and there’re books all around me. There are long chains of equations, formulas and derivations spinning in my head. Nothing seems to stay in my head. All that people say is “This is the turning point of your life”. And blah..blah..blah. After all this is Asia we are talking about here. Haven’t you heard? We live for the A-Plus A-Plus A-plus.
And I have to choose what I want to study next year, Science or Math. And I don’t know what I’m going to choose and I don’t know how to know either.
But between all the preparations and mugging up, the only thing that can put a smile on my face is thinking about what I’m going to do after the exams.
Holy shit. I’m going to wake up late, have brunch or whatever and have a movie marathon or something. And when I’m finally incapable of feeling my butt, I would get up and stroll outside, take a few pictures, some selfies too. Post it on instagram with a caption ” #examsover #strollingaround #thisisamazing” and a lot more hashtags. *smirks*
^_^
Buhahaha. I’m going to have SO much fun!
“We have to create culture, don’t watch TV, don’t read magazines, don’t even listen to NPR. Create your own roadshow. The nexus of space and time where you are now is the most immediate sector of your universe, and if you’re worrying about Michael Jackson or Bill Clinton or somebody else, then you are disempowered, you’re giving it all away to icons, icons which are maintained by an electronic media so that you want to dress like X or have lips like Y. This is shit-brained, this kind of thinking. That is all cultural diversion, and what is real is you and your friends and your associations, your highs, your orgasms, your hopes, your plans, your fears. And we are told ‘no’, we’re unimportant, we’re peripheral. ‘Get a degree, get a job, get a this, get a that.’ And then you’re a player, you don’t want to even play in that game. You want to reclaim your mind and get it out of the hands of the cultural engineers who want to turn you into a half-baked moron consuming all this trash that’s being manufactured out of the bones of a dying world.” ― Terence McKenna
Recently I heard a song called Young and Beautiful by Lana Del Rey. The song was so touching that it is my favorite song of the week.
The lyrics of the song is :
I’ve seen the world
Done it all
Had my cake now
Diamonds, brilliant
And Bel Air now
Hot summer nights, mid July
When you and I were forever wild
The crazy days, city lights
The way you’d play with me like a child
Will you still love me
When I’m no longer young and beautiful?
Will you still love me
When I got nothing but my aching soul?
I know you will, I know you will
I know that you will
Will you still love me when I’m no longer beautiful?
I’ve seen the world, lit it up
As my stage now
Channeling angels in the new age now
Hot summer days, rock ‘n’ roll
The way you play for me at your show
And all the ways I got to know
Your pretty face and electric soul
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I loved the song maybe because of the depth and meaning of the lyrics or the flawless sound of Lana Del Rey and the original instrumental music behind. I don’t know. But I just feel like singing the song and listening to it. Again and Again. 🙂 I hope you like it too.
“…And that’s the thing about people who mean everything they say. They think everyone else does too.” – Khaled Hosseini; The Kite runner
This line from the best-selling novel, The Kite Runner written by Khaled Hosseini is actually very true. Atleast in my case, it is. I’m not saying that I never lie. I do, but when I say something to someone or about someone or something, I mean it. Every single word of it. There are some people I know. They lie so much. I don’t even know why. Sometimes I know what they’re telling me is a complete lie but I choose to shut up. I try to find a reason to believe them. I’m so weak that I CANNOT stay angry at someone for more than an hour. Noone. I think and think and think and then eventually find a reason to forgive them.
My life has always been filled with troubles and flaws. I’m shy and I think I’m absolutely clueless about being confident. I very often feel like a worthless piece of crap. Well. The only thing I do flawlessly is “Breath”.
Please don’t tell me I’m the only one out here like this.
This post was so touching that I thought I should share it. 🙂
She was 27, and at home.
She stood in front of the mirror, naked. She looked at her breasts. This was the biggest they had ever been. But she knew that they were going to get bigger. She stared at herself for a long while before she ran her right hand across the entire area of her belly, from just above her abdomen, all the way down to its lower end. It looked bloated and the bump had begun to show through her clothes now. She was five months pregnant, and had just received her scans from her gynecologist. She had dreaded this moment would come right from when she turned into a teenager. And 15 years later, she still wasn’t prepared for it.
“You are going to have a healthy and beautiful baby girl. You just have to keep eating healthy, and get good sleep and sufficient exercise, just like…
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Death, I think
Is what we’re all waiting for
Life is just a way of telling you
That everything is beyond your control
When you’ve learned enough
they take it away
And from then you start
the real journey
The journey to the woods
and the hills and trees
To where people will welcome you
People who actually care
With open hands, they offer you
Everything that you’ve ever wished for
And suicide is when
You feel that you’ve been through a lot
and there’s nothing left to learn
You abandon what is given to you
But then the journey can’t start
You wait and wait
Till they think it’s time
You wait in the middle of nowhere.
Not having a life nor having the dead
You wait till it’s actually time.
Alone and frustrated
Death is the only journey that matters
And you’re supposed to wait for it
To learn and learn
till they think it’s time.
Some are afraid of death
How can one be?
I don’t know.
I’m not yet taught.
-Aiswarya Keyan
I like photography and my favorite hobby is roaming around with a camera and taking random photos and posting it on my blog or Instagram. There’s this unexplainable pleasure that I get from taking photos. I recently relocated from India to Qatar and I feel alone without any friends and everything. So, photography can be […]